I can't do this anymore..

It's bullshit. That as I sit and write this, I am at home alone, in tears. With no one to talk to. And there's nothing I can do. It's bullshit that you knew about one thing, and didn't care. It's bullshit that I was treated like that, and nothing was done about it! And I have to go to school and put up with the bullshit there and then have nightmares about my past every single night. It's bullshit that I have a mom who won't listen and doesn't give a damn. It's bullshit that I have to live the life I live. I don't know what everything is just now starting to hit me, but it is. And I can't do this anymore.

Just A Thought..

Ok, so Laiken made me realize that maybe this whole Blog thing isn't the best idea. And I'd say she's right. Certain things people don't need to know, and they certainly don't need to be on the internet. But, what's posted is posted. I can't take that back. But, I'll be careful about what I put on here.. ♥

Did you ever think?

Do you ever think back?

Think back on the things you did? Do you ever try to put yourself in my shoes? Did you ever think how things will affect me? Do you ever see the things you have done? Sometimes, I don't think you do. It hurts me to know you don't. It hurts because I know how it feels. I know how it feels because that person is me. I'm the person who has to live with what you did. It may be in the past to you, But to me it lives on everyday. You don't know what it's like to feel this way like I do; and I blame
you. You don't know how it feels to bite back so hard on this anger. None of my pain and woe can show through. Do you have any idea? There are so many things I want to say to you. But I get the best of myself.
I push and push it away, Hoping it will just disappear. It's hard to wish it away when there are flashbacks..I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say. And you can't take back what you've taken away.
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