Please make everything better..

Everything just really sucks all of the sudden. Honestly, I made Kyler sound so much better than he actually is. He didn't talk to me at all today. And that's what usually happens. We talk for hours one night and then I won't hear from him for a day or two. Sometimes a lot more. And it really sucks. He always does this. I'm tired of it. Why does everything have to be so difficult? Why can't everything be good and stay good? Things got bad at home today.. After mom's boyfriend got home anyways. I hate him, I really do. He honestly makes my life miserable. He acts like I am the worst person in the world and every little thing I do or say has to be a big deal like it's the end of the world. Mom doesn't care that I don't like him. She doesn't care that Abby doesn't like him. Any other mother I've ever heard talk always says "if my kids didn't like the person I was with, I wouldn't be able to stay with them." Why isn't my mom like that? Why can't she put her kids first? She really just doesn't care. I wish I was eighteen already. I'm ready to leave and never come back to this town. And my mom is just making me resent her more and more and when I'm eighteen I'm going to leave. No matter where I have to go or who I have to go with, I'm leaving. And if she's still with her boyfriend, I won't talk to her or see her. She's just pushing me away. If I could leave right now, I wouldn't think twice about it. I really wish I could. This house is like hell. Pure hell. And I'm tired of being here. I just want everything to be better. Obviously that isn't an option for me..